In the midst of everything, I ask myself again & again

Where lies the road that will take me back home again

As treacherous as it can be the darkness doesn’t fade away

Keep going further and yet farther it goes away

2 steps forwards and 3 back again

Is there hope for me? I ask myself again

Reflections of past haunt me, present seems insurmountable and future so bleak. Is there a hope for me ever again?

Will I find the path that leads to God or will I wander again?

Many many lifetimes have passed and here back I come again

My treachery knows no bounds, my innocence lost away

I ain’t no saint, no kind, no humble soul

Every action reminds me that every day

I pull away from temptation once yet tomorrow fall back again

Will I find my way to God again?

Is there a hope for someone lost to the depths of immorality to pick up pieces of ignorance and yet find home again?

The only thing that surprises me is the courage to come back and fight again

I have wandered lost for a thousand lifetimes, battle within the worst and the best.

I let the coward win sometimes and indulged in self shame

Blink of death and there I go, I prayed and prayed to never return again

Soul knows what it knows but so clueless it feels again…

I am a sheep with no sense of separation and right and wrong feels the same….

Indulged in poverty and richness the same…

But this emptiness does wager again…

I stand on the curbside waiting to be heard yet no response again

Years and flocks passed by and something shunned my calmness away

Brutally featherless and injured bird lying on the death bed

No fear no pain no spite no tear

Prompted I asked the soul what he chants with breath fading away

Gratitude and love, he says

I stood in the que for thousands of years- with and without karma and yet failed again and again. ”. I pray for grace and love to find me and take me away…

When you feel lost with no foresight or a way back. Stand in the queue still and pray every day for the grace and love to find and take you away. I closed my eyes and called upon the divine love and grace to hold my hands and take me back to my true home again!!!  With Gratitude and Love- I will find my “True home again”!!!